Civilians
Bought the Bee Movie game
yelling at the kids on my lawn
Posts: 16
Preferred Name: Laura
Pronouns: She/Her
Character Profile: B)
Character Name: Rick
Main Account: This one????
Status: Lurking
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Post by Richard on Oct 6, 2015 20:17:56 GMT -5
tfw debilitating anxiety for no reason
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Vigilantes
 Smiley Specialist
he's big enough
Posts: 164
Preferred Name: Nama
Character Profile: ♦♦♦
Character Name: Levenin Refure
Main Account: Levenin
Status: On Hiatus
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Post by Levenin on Oct 7, 2015 19:15:10 GMT -5
Tw: TMI probably So I randomly came across this little tidbit about vitamin D deficiency today (which you all know I've been struggling with for a while now): low D is linked to low libido in men and women since it's used in the production of hormone shit, basically. And I've been playing around with the possibility that maybe my asexuality is health-based. I wrestle with mental illness and anemia so a totally valid point, right? But out of everything that's improved since I started my vitamin supplements near the start of this year, that's the one thing that never changed. I'm still as driveless as ever.
It kinda sucks. Like a whole lot more than I want it to. I'm not ashamed of being a woman, being multi-racial, or of being bi. But I hate being ace. I fucking hate it. If I could be normal, I'd do it without a second thought. I always had hope that my health getting better would've changed it but it's still here. It's been here for as long as I can remember. What if no one ever loves me because of it? What if I end up alone or unfulfilled? Or judged by family for being the only one who didn't do what everyone's supposed to do, like marriage and this and that?
I don't understand why I had to be born this way. I can't fix myself from being broken. |
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advanced tinfoil
QUEEN OF BAD JOKES - the ultimate kris-ader
Posts: 18
Preferred Name: ℣įɀ
Character Profile: here
Character Name: Kris
Main Account: This!
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Post by Enchilada on Oct 9, 2015 21:31:02 GMT -5
I'm at a point where a lot of irreversible things (hopefully not) are happening/have happened, many of them not very good, so I'm doing all I can to finish assignments on time, and dance to matchbox twenty while I pack for an amazing conference that will hopefully lift me up substantially, play way too much league, and otherwise...manage, I guess. That's really all I can do, for now...manage, and try not to overthink things.
I'm a mix of a lot of things right now...At least League and Grace Hopper prep is just enough of a distraction for now :')
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Vigilantes
Smiley Specialist
he's big enough
Posts: 164
Preferred Name: Nama
Character Profile: ♦♦♦
Character Name: Levenin Refure
Main Account: Levenin
Status: On Hiatus
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Post by Levenin on Oct 24, 2015 13:41:28 GMT -5
Tw: death Homecoming was today at my alma mater and a car drove into a crowd of people. 3 are already dead and I'm still waiting on people I know to check in. They were there. More could die by the end of the day, all because some fucking drunk asshole plowed into them on the busiest day of the year in Stillwater. Disgusted does not even begin to cover it. |
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Bow of Cerberus
forever judging koko
Posts: 18
Preferred Name: Mama, Tsukiko, Beyonce
Pronouns: She, Her
Character Profile: http://r3dux.boards.net/thread/152/gaia
Character Name: Gaia
Main Account: This one yo
Status: Lurking
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Post by tsukikomumai on Oct 24, 2015 14:57:24 GMT -5
I almost cried at work twice I still have three and a half more hours just kill me now |
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Vigilantes
Smiley Specialist
he's big enough
Posts: 164
Preferred Name: Nama
Character Profile: ♦♦♦
Character Name: Levenin Refure
Main Account: Levenin
Status: On Hiatus
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Post by Levenin on Nov 5, 2015 5:36:37 GMT -5
Yaaaayy, another moment of remembering how shitty I am and how I'll be alone forever and end up with no friends in the end because I'm an anxious piece of shit who can barely even text people half the time and whose friends probably secretly think she's annoying and everyone at work probably hates me =u= Can I be someone else, preferably someone who can talk on the phone or ask someone at the store which aisle something is in without wanting to cry, or someone with even a slight modicum of self esteem that'd be nice too, or hell, average. I will settle for average because where I am is at the bottom of a garbage heap I haaaaate meeeee I hate myself sooooo much~ ♫♫♫♫ |
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Officer coat rack
Posts: 38
Preferred Name: Miru-hime/amboob
Character Profile: +
Character Name: Sven De'montifar
Status: On Hiatus
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Post by sven on Nov 8, 2015 21:40:49 GMT -5
I'm sorry ;______; to everyone I was rping with I've pretty much stopped completely / I've dropped off the face of the earth feeling like I don't actually belong anywhere , even though the people who care about me tell me it's okay I still don't feel like it really is okay or that I even feel okay . I feel like I'm displacing myself out of fear of everyone hating me .... I'm sorry I'm sorry ;____; I feel like I shouldn't even be here . |
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Post by Deleted on Nov 18, 2015 13:12:53 GMT -5
i want this to be the last mistake i ever make |
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Posts: 14
Preferred Name: Shadow
Pronouns: They/Them
Character Name: Flynn Vaughan
Status: Lurking
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Post by shadowmellow on Nov 28, 2015 5:07:52 GMT -5
things have been going better for the past week but im still really conflicted if i should stay on rp sites when there are so many memories left there. not to mention all my ocs. it feels wrong to touch them after everything that happened. plot wise it would work, at least here but...
i want to be an active member here, i really do but rping is tied to so many memories i dont know if i can manage to make myself stay;;; |
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Vigilantes
Smiley Specialist
he's big enough
Posts: 164
Preferred Name: Nama
Character Profile: ♦♦♦
Character Name: Levenin Refure
Main Account: Levenin
Status: On Hiatus
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Post by Levenin on Dec 3, 2015 23:05:51 GMT -5
My old cat back home is slowly dying. His kidneys are failing and he's dropped from 20 lbs to 8 in a span of 3 or so months. I dunno how much time I have left with him. He's been around for 12 years. |
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