I better HOP to it
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Preferred Name: Kami
Pronouns: Gender Neutral pronouns (Zhe, Zher, Zhim or They/Them)
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Character Name: Riku
Main Account: This one
Status: Active
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Post by Riku on Aug 24, 2015 13:52:45 GMT -5
TW: mental health problems, suicide mention, alcoholismHaving to watch your mentally unstable mother all day while she sleeps constantly and then slowly becomes an alcoholic is pretty tiring? So many people in my life have mental health issues and trying to help all of them is just so...impossible. Especially since I have mental health problems too and have to stay on medicine for it.
What the hell am I supposed to get my mom to do?? She can't work and she has nothing to do all day long. I know she needs a hobby or something but i'm at a complete loss of what I can do? She doesn't even eat much anymore... I honestly don't know if I can handle it if she hurt herself AGAIN on MY watch. The memory of her being carted out by an ambulance isn't something I can just forget easily. I know its not my fault if it happens but it's more so just the fact I feel so helpless. I don't even know what to do for myself let alone for other people.
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Vigilantes
 Smiley Specialist
he's big enough
Posts: 164
Preferred Name: Nama
Character Profile: ♦♦♦
Character Name: Levenin Refure
Main Account: Levenin
Status: On Hiatus
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Post by Levenin on Aug 26, 2015 16:07:54 GMT -5
So a reporter and a cameraman were shot live on the air. Not only did people watching the channel see it but the gunman decided to record his own video as well, which he posted online before shooting himself. As someone who works in television and whose parents worked in TV, this hits close to home. Like, any one of my coworkers could get so mad one day that they decide to do something like this. Just for something small. People I work with could die on scene. I kind of wish I worked today because I can only imagine what everyone at the station thinks about this. It's scary. |
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Bought the Bee Movie game
yelling at the kids on my lawn
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Preferred Name: Laura
Pronouns: She/Her
Character Profile: B)
Character Name: Rick
Main Account: This one????
Status: Lurking
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Post by Richard on Aug 28, 2015 11:17:53 GMT -5
It's been made crystal clear to me that you don't want me in your little group, that somehow I'm not enough to be worth your time and support, even with all the support I've given you, and that's fine. But I'm not going to sit here and try to prove my worth, prove that I can, actually, be part of this club that's supposedly for people like me, too. I don't want to be part of it any more. I'm not going to try. |
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illegal amounts of perfection
fuck ritseiku.
Posts: 7
Preferred Name: Koko
Character Profile: Here
Character Name: Eva
Status: Lurking
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Post by Kokotan on Sept 6, 2015 10:26:13 GMT -5
/curls over My dog has had 5 seizures within the last 12 hours.
She was rushed to the emergency room early this morning but she had two more after that even though she has medication now. She went from one a month since January, didn't have one in July, had two in one day in August and now... 5 in one day. I'm really worried about her, she's not even that old. I'm afraid she's really really sick and there's nothing we can do about it. She's going to see her doctor on Tuesday but it's starting to really stress me out.
I'll just have to pray the worst isn't being applied here and hope the medication will start helping her the two weeks she needs to be on it.
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TROGDOR THE BURNINATOR
Wink while you can, asshole
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Preferred Name: Scotty
Main Account: Kyne
Status: Active
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Post by kyne on Sept 6, 2015 11:32:51 GMT -5
Ahh koko;;
///holds you and your dog and sends as many good vibes as humanly possible to both ;;
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Bow of Cerberus
forever judging koko
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Preferred Name: Mama, Tsukiko, Beyonce
Pronouns: She, Her
Character Profile: http://r3dux.boards.net/thread/152/gaia
Character Name: Gaia
Main Account: This one yo
Status: Lurking
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Post by tsukikomumai on Sept 6, 2015 19:15:39 GMT -5
Oh no poor Jamie! I hope she feels better. Keep us posted okay?
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Unapproved Character
illegal amounts of perfection
fuck ritseiku.
Posts: 7
Preferred Name: Koko
Character Profile: Here
Character Name: Eva
Status: Lurking
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Post by Kokotan on Sept 7, 2015 11:57:52 GMT -5
; O ;) Thanks everyone! Her medication seems to be working now. We still need to figure out what dosage is best for the daily use but she hasn't had a seizure for almost 24 hours.
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Smiley Specialist
he's big enough
Posts: 164
Preferred Name: Nama
Character Profile: ♦♦♦
Character Name: Levenin Refure
Main Account: Levenin
Status: On Hiatus
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Post by Levenin on Sept 20, 2015 6:01:02 GMT -5
I've had horrible anxiety for the past few days. Every time I think it's getting better, something little happens to make it go back on full throttle. ; v ;
I'm sitting here at work about to cry because of a 5 second conversation in the parking lot. TuT |
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 C[re]ate Champion
Posts: 38
Preferred Name: Mist
Pronouns: She/Her
Character Profile: Character Hub
Character Name: Riley
Main Account: this one
Status: Busy w/ Life
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Post by Riley on Sept 29, 2015 11:28:42 GMT -5
I'm so done...
Done with this stupid internship, done with that arsehole of a fake, demeaning little man who should have been my counsellor for the internship but now thinks he can keep using me for his stupid research, when my contract ended a month ago! I'm so goddamn done!
I swear the only bright spots in this whole situation are the people I could talk to and my student counsellor for standing by my side.
This was the worst place to finish my study and sad part is I'm not even done writing my thesis yet!
Why not? Well, for the past week I've been called on my cellphone DAILY (I'm talking at least 6x a day here) by that man asking for shit I already filed away and told him of the location. I even went back for a day to make a bloody table for his convenience.
And worst is that every mistake he made, he is now trying to place on me! And I actually have proof of that! He is trying to blame me for using the wrong formula which he told me to use, he blames me for a calculation error he made (again something I have proof of) and he keeps trying to interfere with my report while that isn't even his job!
I swear I'm a patient person and things like this usually don't get to me, but people are seriously telling me this is a form of harassment and I don't even-ugh!
Damn, I didn't mean to write this much. Just needed to get it off my chest.
This is also the reason for my inactivity lately, I'm really sorry about that. |
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C[re]ate Champion
Posts: 106
Preferred Name: Varmun
Pronouns: He/Him
Character Profile: Character List
Character Name: Isaac Vasari
Main Account: Isaac
Status: Active
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Post by Isaac on Oct 6, 2015 18:50:04 GMT -5
I always hate posting here. I feel like I personally have no right to complain about anything, like my problems are too small, but I'm just so angry right now.
I don't know what is going on with my life and what I can do to fix it. I hate where I'm living. I don't want it to sound like I'm living in the ghetto or something, but it's just a place where I feel... like I don't belong. It's the polar opposite of who I am. It's the fucking government. I'm working for the government and I went to art school. What am I doing here?
I don't like my job. I can't say I hate it, and I can't say it's the worst job in the world, but again, it just feels like I don't belong there. I don't like ANYBODY at work. I can kinda talk to a few people, and I honestly try to talk to them, but we have nothing in common. There is no one there that I can really be a nerd with and talk about the things I like. And then there are just people there that I straight-up do not like at all. Judgmental pricks who have sticks shoved so far up their asses that I mistake them for trees, so stuck in their ways and uninterested in learning about anything. All they want to do is shit on what they don't understand.
And I'm just so lonely. I get to see friends every now and then, which is awesome, but again there is no one in Silver Spring that I like. And I hate the area, so I don't want to go out and talk to anybody. There isn't even a place like that around here. It's all shops and rundown neighborhoods that depress the fuck out of me. I feel like I'm living close to a ghetto area, but not actually.
I want to be with my girlfriend, but our relationship is so complicated. I have been here for three months and she hasn't started looking for any work here or anything, which I can kind of understand, but I kinda also don't. I'm so torn up on how to feel about her right now. On one hand, I want her to be here, and I want to be with her and enjoy my time with her, but on the other hand I know she'll HATE it here. I hate it here, and I have more experience driving in traffic and dealing with places like this. She has none. She's petrified to drive in a neighborhood, let alone a 3-lane city street where it's bumper-to-bumper traffic all the time and everyone is so fucking pissed off all the time. So I don't want her here because I know she'll hate it, but what can I do? Do I keep putting off our relationship until I find some place I like?
What's killing me about this is that--no matter how much I talk about this to people--it never goes away. This anger just won't leave. It makes me think that I really should get out of this place, but I can't just yet. I still have to stick it out for at least 3 more months, which I can totally do, but fuck I'm just so angry. |
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